I don't know how to explain this because it is just so different than how I've felt for the majority of my life. But I want something more.
I have an empty space in me, and I don't know what I would want to fill it.
My philosophy is that this void didn't just appear out of nowhere in my soul, I think that for years I have been filling the void with alcohol, drugs, parties, and sex. While all those things are fun, it's not enough for me anymore.
I don't know what exactly I would need to feel whole again. It could be that I am really ready for a serious relationship. It could also be that I am feeling extremely anxious about the future because I'm a second semester junior who has never had an internship and will most likely still be working at TJ Max with a Masters Degree.
I can't explain where this feeling of emptiness came from but lately I have just been bored with my life. Which is in no way normal because, not to brag, but I live a pretty exciting life.
Well when I figure it out I will be sure to keep you all posted.
For now I will continue being dazed and confused.
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